There is me smiling. There are my sisters and brother chatting the sunset away.
I see myself apologizing. I see myself saying that sweet yet dreadful words....
Because realizing is different.
Acting it out is just rather.........
I love you.
Yes I do. It's never a lie.
Hating you?
No. I just dislike you.
Yeah you.
You, my dear family.
Often. I would have these fantasies where we would gather again. All of us. Laughing, smiling, crying together. I would have these scenes of constant apology, constant forgiveness among each other. Then there are those moments of confessions. Life mistakes, personal problems, love stories. I would have all these thoughts everywhere, every time. Classes? Bathroom? Bed? Meetings? Movies? Name it, every single second my mind get distracted, usually its this.
However, then I'll realize everything back again.
No dreams will come true without any efforts.
No effort will worth any without continuation.
No continuation will last without perseverance.
No perseverance will start without readiness.
So am I ready?
Are we, ready?
Could you please wait for a little while?
Can I, them, us suffer this for any longer?
I beg of you.
Don't lose hope.
I'm sorry.
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