Sickening Sun

Assalamualaikum.
Hello there.

Warmth is a great thing isn't it?

Indeed.

I loved and still am loving the Sun for such a long time~

No doubt that sometimes it's ray hurts a little bit, but it never angers me.

I'm grateful for the sweats it gave me.

Taiyou no Uta is a sad life to me. A world without the sun.

As a child, a curious one, I had wished to be able to feel others pain.

And at that particular moment, I prayed to be sick towards the Sun.

Well, who would have thought it came true?

A sensitive skin.

Spots on my face.

No I don't know what to think.

I'm not mad at Allah, at God for making this dream come true.

I am happy that Allah granted it.

It's not like I'm dying anyway~

I just got scared. Scared by the words incurable. Incurable, but controllable. That should be fine, isn't it? But still, I'm terrified. Of nothing to be exact. Every time I think about this condition of mine (please I don't want to call it a disease.), I have this tingling feeling inside of me. As if I'm getting worse. As if my whole body would itch.

Maybe I'm unable to taste the sweet Sun anymore.

For now, I could only pray.

No more for illness, or even wellness.

But for Allah to give me the best of me.

To strengthen my iman.